I've been overeating 🥘

25yo Rebecca wouldn’t recognise me if I’m honest,

She was so wrapped up in macros and mirrors she’d think I had lost my mind, 

The fact I eat without MFP and have done for a good 4/5 years, 

The fact I get dressed 95% of the time without looking at myself, 

The fact I’m probably overeating. 

She would be shocked.. 

But frankly if she sat down with me, she’d soon realise what a beautiful place we were in.

As I sat opposite my best friend, a day we had spent together, my first without Ayla, it was then I realised how different life is. 

It’s been the most beautiful 21 weeks of my life, a journey of complete love, joy, gratitude, but also exhaustion, uncertainty, something I now long to wake up to. I wish to wake up every morning to my smiling daughter’s face. 

It hit me how different this is in comparison to how it could’ve been. 

You see. I regularly talk about my weight loss. The decade, well more now, of keeping it off, but I realise I do so much of my other stuff a disservice, maybe because weight loss is a common topic, hotter now than ever before.

But 25 yo me couldn’t have dealt with this experience. 

She would’ve been to blind sided by body changes, appetite irregularities and other things. 

She would’ve been seeking control, perfection, and hindering any presence in life. 

She would’ve wanted to get her pre baby body back 🤮 and got straight back to tracking calories after babies born.

She wouldn’t have waited to exercise, nor would she be happy with suboptimal sessions. 

You see she was wrapped up in food, in her body, and thought that was the height of her success. 

I’d diet for holidays, birthdays, etc only to feel so consumed by my body, by food. 

Sure I lost weight, but I kept losing a part of me, until I didn’t anymore.

Until I quit. 

I quit dieting. I remember seeing a post from my mentor and now friend that triggered me, “maybe you like your binge eating” and I did, despite being in a societally acceptable body, I did. It was the only thing I had, it comforted me and bought me joy. 

Fast forward and we’ve done something truly magical, not just Ayla, but I’ve worked on my relationship with myself. 

A client told me last week I inspire her, little does she know how much she inspires me, but we will leave that debate - Thanks Lucy 💛 

Working on my relationship with myself has meant I’ve broken down my own beliefs, my own barriers. 

I’ve learnt to ask for help and no longer be a martyr, 

I’ve learnt to be imperfect, hourly, and embrace the true messiness of life, 

I’ve learnt to implement more boundaries, with those closest to me,

I’ve learnt to become more grateful for the small moments, like right now, as my daughter lies asleep on my chest and I have the freedom to write to you all, it’s peaceful, it’s present, it’s connected. 

I’ve learnt to trust my body more than ever before which means I am likely eating above my calorie needs, but with no guilt, shame to desire to even want to try and diet. Right now is not the time, and I don’t know if I’ll ever have the desire to again. 

You see, when you do this work, you recognise that there is more to health than macros and mirrors. That your health is not a KG a stone and pound reading, it encompasses a variety of avenues that collectively form how you feel.

Most of you, however have a clouded judgement on how you feel, wrapped up in weight bias, the scales are dictating how you feel in your body, your step counter determining how your mindset is. You’re internalising everything that is happening around you impacting your self worth, showing up in body shame, overeating and food guilt. 

The next diet is screaming to you, but you’ve convinced yourself to wait until January, because “what’s the point” and frankly I’m asking what’s the point in doing another round of dieting that just forces more food and body preoccupation?

Instead, there is a different way, one that encompasses ALL facets of health, that works on an individual basis, that is centered around honest, evidence based practise, that doesn’t see you as a calorie target, but a human, with your own goals, values and commitments. 

Here at Thrive, our coaching is built on 6 core principles that take you through a journey of healing, rediscovering yourself and finding peace with food & your body. 

I know it’s not as sexy as me praying on your vulnerability come January, frankly it goes against everything I believe in, but what woo say is when you lay the foundations here, you get fat loss but in a way that banishes binge eating and yo-yo dieting.

I’m ready when you are, let’s have a chat ❤️ fill in the details below.

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